.....Most of it is true, so far as I've read. At least as far as I'm concerned (and have noticed), I exhibit most of the stereotypes of a dermatillomaniac:
I'm not addicted to any sort of drug
I've only even tried pot once...
I've always been an overachiever in school
Finished high school 3rd in my class, 3.96 GPA out of 4.0
Finished college (first in my family to get a Bachelor's degree!) with a 3.26
Basically put myself thru school financially, with the help of gov't loans, which I'll have to pay back....
I've always participated in extracurriculars throughout high school and college:
Wrestling
Concert/Marching/Pep Band
Math Club
Science Club
Art Club
Zeta Phi Eta (Honorary Communication Fraternity)
Volunteer Note Taking (For Students with Disabilities)
I'm actually really good at hiding my dermatillomania, which I've noticed about many others who share this condition with me.
I'm a bit of a facebook stalker (sorry!), so I like to click on profiles of those who are in my dermatillomania groups with me. And I've got to say, we're HOT! The profile pics that I've seen of us, we're out there, being social, looking good, hanging out! Seriously, we should all be make-up artists or something, because we're really good at hiding our condition from the world with our make-up in our pictures.
I just found this really ironic, that those of us with such a devestating condition would photograph so well!!
What a bunch of hotties we are!!
♥
Stay strong, we can beat this, and look good doing it, too!!!!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Feelin Good
Hey-o, I'm back again.
I'm happy to report that I've found a job!! It's not much (15 hours a week, $9.50/hr) but it's a start. And now I'll be able to at least pay my bills while looking for my "big-kid" job. We'll see where this leads me.
Skin-wise, I'm still doing pretty good again, and I'm very happy about it. Don't really have too much to say about it other than that. A lot of my stress was lifted by finding some sort of income, and this is definitely reflected in my skin. I guess I never really paid enough attention to what was going on in my life during really bad skin periods to notice how much of an affect my mental health has on the condition of my skin and how much I pick. I know that I bottle up a lot of my emotions as well, and that probably wasn't helping matters either.
Blogging has been a big help, especially in conjunction with my line-writing, which I'm still doing. It just makes me feel better, like it's something that I can actually do to help my skin, rather than just having to sit and wait for the natural healing to take place.
Stay strong, fellow pickers! We CAN beat this!!!
♥
"I don't need to pick, I love myself."
I'm happy to report that I've found a job!! It's not much (15 hours a week, $9.50/hr) but it's a start. And now I'll be able to at least pay my bills while looking for my "big-kid" job. We'll see where this leads me.
Skin-wise, I'm still doing pretty good again, and I'm very happy about it. Don't really have too much to say about it other than that. A lot of my stress was lifted by finding some sort of income, and this is definitely reflected in my skin. I guess I never really paid enough attention to what was going on in my life during really bad skin periods to notice how much of an affect my mental health has on the condition of my skin and how much I pick. I know that I bottle up a lot of my emotions as well, and that probably wasn't helping matters either.
Blogging has been a big help, especially in conjunction with my line-writing, which I'm still doing. It just makes me feel better, like it's something that I can actually do to help my skin, rather than just having to sit and wait for the natural healing to take place.
Stay strong, fellow pickers! We CAN beat this!!!
♥
"I don't need to pick, I love myself."
Monday, October 12, 2009
A Little Off-Subject
I've hit depression at it's worst.
Got an email today from my cell phone company. They're shutting me off in 10 days, because I'm 2 months behind on payments. I'm semi-caught-up on one of the credit cards I have, but one of them I'm 156 days behind. They said if I don't make some sort of payment soon, they may have to take legal action against me. OH. And I no longer have insurance on my car, because I can't make my payments.
Thing is, I probably won't be able to make any payments in the near future. I finished my degree in Public Relations in May, and I still haven't been able to get a job. Unemployed for 5 months now. And it's not for lack of trying, trust me. Sending out resumes, filling out applications, making phone calls, I've been doing it all. And no one's been biting.
I can't even get, like, a waitressing gig. Or a gas station/convenience store job. Or freaking Wal-Mart. The stress from this is making me physically and emotionally ill. Ironically, my skin is looking better again, like it did before I "fell off the wagon". Talk about not making sense.
Such is my life.
♥
Got an email today from my cell phone company. They're shutting me off in 10 days, because I'm 2 months behind on payments. I'm semi-caught-up on one of the credit cards I have, but one of them I'm 156 days behind. They said if I don't make some sort of payment soon, they may have to take legal action against me. OH. And I no longer have insurance on my car, because I can't make my payments.
Thing is, I probably won't be able to make any payments in the near future. I finished my degree in Public Relations in May, and I still haven't been able to get a job. Unemployed for 5 months now. And it's not for lack of trying, trust me. Sending out resumes, filling out applications, making phone calls, I've been doing it all. And no one's been biting.
I can't even get, like, a waitressing gig. Or a gas station/convenience store job. Or freaking Wal-Mart. The stress from this is making me physically and emotionally ill. Ironically, my skin is looking better again, like it did before I "fell off the wagon". Talk about not making sense.
Such is my life.
♥
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Going in Circles
Alright, I wrote recently about my (somewhat minor) relapse. The one where I picked three spots pretty good? Yeah, that one.
Well, I've let two out of those three sores heal up just fine. The third, however, I've been having real issues with. It's right on my chin, for the world to see. I just can't seem to leave it alone! I think I'll have to sit down and write more lines.... Also, I really wish that scars faded faster!!
In other news, I'm going to be attending another funeral on Monday. It'll be funeral #4 since April. Stupid 2009, you suck! RIP Uncle Jerry, I didn't know you well, but I know that you were well loved by all. ♥ I think that Uncle Jerry being so sick and on life support, and then passing away last night, may be a reason I can't leave that sore alone. He was my long-time (4 years!) boyfriend's uncle, and it's affected Jake a bit.
Either that, or I just suck. And the fact that even though I just completed my degree in Public Relations back in May, I am still unemployed. Not a whole lot to be happy about right now, I guess. It makes it harder to convince myself that I love myself....
♥
Well, I've let two out of those three sores heal up just fine. The third, however, I've been having real issues with. It's right on my chin, for the world to see. I just can't seem to leave it alone! I think I'll have to sit down and write more lines.... Also, I really wish that scars faded faster!!
In other news, I'm going to be attending another funeral on Monday. It'll be funeral #4 since April. Stupid 2009, you suck! RIP Uncle Jerry, I didn't know you well, but I know that you were well loved by all. ♥ I think that Uncle Jerry being so sick and on life support, and then passing away last night, may be a reason I can't leave that sore alone. He was my long-time (4 years!) boyfriend's uncle, and it's affected Jake a bit.
Either that, or I just suck. And the fact that even though I just completed my degree in Public Relations back in May, I am still unemployed. Not a whole lot to be happy about right now, I guess. It makes it harder to convince myself that I love myself....
♥
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