I have given up my addiction.
Not for my significant other, as I have been lucky enough to have someone in my life who loves me no matter what, and has stuck with me throughout more than five of my ten years with this illness.
Not for my family, as the only one I've told about my addiction is my mother. And I'm still not convinced that she believes that I have an actual addiction to anything.
Not for my friends. Though they have seen the physical affects, I have told exactly ONE of my personal friends about the true nature of my affliction. Understanding though he was, I haven't found the courage to tell more.
I have given up my addiction.
I can't sustain the emotional toll any longer. I can't deal with the hiding, the shame.
I have given up my addiction.
FOR ME.
I've started blogging about my CSP as well, but not on blogspot =/
ReplyDeleteI've book marked your diary, I hope you're doing well in your battle. I'm not doing so good on mine. Hopefully blogging will help.
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Thank you so much for your wonderful blog. I've had Dermatillomania for almost 12 years now (since I was 14) and didn't find out that there were other people like me up until last year. Let me tell you that you are a truly beautiful woman, and don't let your skin ever tell you otherwise. I wish you all the strength in the world to overcome this horrible illness and to realize what an amazing person you are. Best wishes from Germany
ReplyDeleteHey, so I just read through some of your blog, because I knew I had a problem picking at my skin, but I never really knew what it was called/that other people really did this too.
ReplyDeleteAnyways, you give me hope that I can work on overcoming this. Usually I scratch at my arms (I unfortunately have those bumps on my arm that never actually go away?) so I always scratch at them, and at my back. Sometimes my face, mostly around my chin because of acne.
But I put a bandaid on my back for right now, to make me stop scratching, and i've been trying to reduce the bumps on my arms to help me stop wanted to scratch at them. I think I'm going to do what you do, with the only one time applying makeup.. that will hopefully make me stop scratching up my face some.
Sorry, this is a long comment :)