Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Back in the Saddle Again

It's been a REALLY long time since my last post, but Life kind of got in the way. Sorries!!

I got a new job back in January. I hate it. =( At first it wasn't so bad, but now it just drains me, physically and emotionally. I'm a customer service representative for Time Warner Cable's New York/New Jersey division. So basically, I spend my days taking calls from angry New Yorkers who yell at me because their bill is too high or their equipment doesn't work, etc., etc. Needless to say, it's a pretty stressful job. And because of this, my skin and my picking have both gotten worse over the past few months.

Some better news: I'm in the middle of the hiring process right now for a job that I really want: managing a campus call center that would raise funds for the campus. I used to be a caller at one of these back when I was in college and I loved it, so I'm really hoping that I get this. They have locations all across the country, but none in my home state of Wisconsin, so I'd have to move, but I'm really ok with that. I'm hoping for Florida. =)

Alrighty, on to a subject more relevant to the subject of this blog. Lol.

I've started writing my lines again. It's been about a day and a half since I last picked and, just like last time, I'm seeing results already. Now this new-found resolve to get Back in the Saddle (Haha, see what I did there? I incorporated the title of the blog into the blog! Awesome, right?) didn't come just out of the blue. I had a little push from a friend by the name of Angie Hartlin, author of "FOREVER MARKED: A Dermatillomania Diary". Once I get back on my feet financially, I definitely plan to buy the book, I've heard a ton of great things about it. But what actually inspired me was that she contacted me about one of the photos that I had posted of myself in the Dermatillomania Awareness group on Facebook.

She's doing a project in which she photoshopps pictures of derm sufferers to show our "true identities". So this is the end result:

And you can find more of her work here: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=69204020#!/photo.php?pid=4022474&id=177738602694 (although you might have to join the group or become a fan or whatever in order to see them).

But seeing myself without any blemishes for the first time since I was 14 kind of lit of fire under me. Now, I really want to look like that photo, in real life, with no makeup. I think this just might be the visual incentive I need to help me get there.

So thank you, Ms. Hartlin, for giving me the push I needed to try again.


2 comments:

  1. Hi, I just found the way here. I have a blog about this too (and about other "fun" stuff in life), it's not in English though, although there are links to articles and pages in English...

    Would you like to write a guest posting for my blog? I try to raise awareness about this in my country, and also internationally.

    Have you found something that works? I got so many scars, and a never ending battle with zits and wounds. I just wish I could look okay.

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  2. Hi! I've just started finding others blogs about dermatillomania...I am keeping one as well, as an overall progress for my health/well-being: http://vieva.vox.com. Keep us posted :)

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